Metanoia, A Human Journey

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#1 Metanoia [English | origin: Greek]

(n.) The journey of changing one's mind, heart, self, or way to life. Hijrah.

As the time change and we couldn't predict what may happen in the future, life has brought me various feeling in short time. I was a person who have a courage to embrace all the possibilities I facing. I dared to take the opportunities to all challenge may take my energy and time. I was not fear of being left and down. I saw everything as a bright as a gem shines.



But time slowly has change me to someone I never know. I become a pessimist. Reluctant to involve any activities I loved before. I Frail. Stumbled everytime I need to say. I changed. To be a cold heart person. Ignoring the fact that I could do more. Remain silent for what happened in front of my eyes. I pretend not heard of what people scream about. The sad eyes, whack lips, and frown applied very well on my face. That's I see myself today.

As the world created to fill of diverse feelings, different lives colors the life. A wonderful journey of human being headed to a new chapters is always possibles. Hope, surrender, pray, ambition, and sincerity all have been prepared. What will happen and what expected to be happen is all hanging on the sky. Today, all the things mixed into one word that I solemnly wanted to be happen, metanoia.


This word does not sound familiar. But I love how it describe my whole optimism of good changing.
By this meaning, word for word, again I will try to knit into a string of promise sentences. As I began to get used to loving this word, I welcoming inspiring words. Digging buried memories to lively the life I will live with it. Designing the present life to be, or observing the things surround me and build it as a joyous reality.

People said, it's never too late to start everything you wanted. Even if only today I re-open my heart, I hope I will survive from the storm of raging amok. For me and for you. Everything will be clear when I get to the finish line. But, right now, I m not thinking of the finish line, just a joyful and happy journey.

2018, I bet you. My life will be more exited. Raging. Yet, still chill and peaceful. Although there will be many gray words that will present a few bad days might come for once or twice.

Hijrah, the word I hear more often than metanoia. Both of words describe well what I want to do. Making beautiful journey from the dark to the light. An attempt to hug the Maha (Lord). To be loved and love Him as well.
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2018 telah sampai ke tengah. Perjalanan indah sebagai manusia memasuki babak baru. Harapan, keberpasrahan, ketamakan dan keikhlasan sudah disiapkan. apa yang akan terjadi dan apa yang diharapkan terjadi. Hari ini, semua tercampur menjadi satu kata yang ingin diwujudkan, metanoia.

Kata ini tidak terdengar familiar. Tetapi, saya menyukainya. Ya, kata demi kata akan kembali coba kurajut menjadi untaian kalimat. Sebagaimana dulu saya mencintainya. Menyambut kata yang menginspirasi, menggali kenangan yang terkubur, atau mengamati hal-hal yang saya cintai.

Katanya, tidak ada kata terlambat. bahkan jika baru hari ini aku kembali membuka hati, kuharap aku akan selamat. dari badai amuk yang akan berkecamuk. untukku, atau untukmu. semua akan jadi jelas ketika aku sampai pada garis akhir. tetapi saat ini aku sedang tidak memikirkan garis akhir. hanya perjalanan yang menyenangkan dan membahagiakan.

2018, aku bertaruh padamu. hidupku yang akan lebih bergairah. bergelora. tapi tetap tenang dan damai. meski akan banyak kata kelabu yang akan mewakili beberapa hari yang terasa sesak. semoga aku bisa berdamai dengan diriku.

P.S : catatan ini merupakan unggah ulang dari akun instagram seni kata @logophile yang dibuat dan dikelola oleh @lisvifadlillah